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I live in Mooringsport La. and work in construction full time and dabble in art when ever I can. I would love to be able to do my art full time--who knows, maybe one day I will. In the past year, I started doing Festivals, trying to sell my Art. It is ALOT of work, but worth it. I have met so many people with the same interests as myself.

Thursday, May 17, 2012

Do you feel Guilty

 I have this wonderful old friend who feeds my "salvage" hunger.  Whenever he comes across something old and rusty, he thinks of me.  He brings me some of the most beautiful rusty things.  Items that most people would discard because the newness has faded and it has no sparkle left.  He brings me things that have the patina of time and life.  All of the dents and scrapes that it picks up on the way show up in its rusty skin.  All of this rust covers a mystery and shrouds the item in a cloak.  Where has it been and who did it belong to. Was it once a once loved piece which has now been discarded and replaced with something "new", something "better".  I prefer the old, rusty things with the air of history and mystery over the stamped out, over sold, cheaply made and imported "new" things. Maybe that is because it reflects "life".  We go through life getting bumps and bruises along the way.  Our  outer beauty fades, but internally we become more beautiful.  We acquire a depth and knowledge that we didn't possess in our younger years. We lose some of our sparkle but we take on a patina.  You can see life etched in our faces by the hands of time but there knowledge of who we are and where we have come from.  We begin to know what we want and desire.Maybe this is why I like old, rusty things.......

  That brings me back to the pieces that I have included in my blog today.  These pieces are composed of rusty old barbwire, old jewelry and cedar boards.
I made some of them for my upcoming shows.

I have a show the last weekend of May and have been busy trying to get some things done for them.  I love the shows, but I feel like I let them dictate my life.

Getting ready for them consumes my time and I have very little time for housework, yard work, etc....... That leads me to this--Do any of you ever feel guilty because you spend so much time on your art or your craft??  Am I alone in feeling that I am not pulling my weight around the house because most of my spare moments are spent on my art. 
 I know that I work full time, cook when I can, clean when I should and take care of the critters- but how much more do I need to do to "feel" like I am doing what I should??  Why do I feel so guilty??  Is it because I spend so much time doing what I love and my husband picks up all of the loose ends that I leave dragging??  Don' get me wrong.  He NEVER complains about the time that I spend on my art.  H mows the grass, helps with the animals, does all of the odds and ends that come with living out in the country and he seems to be fine with it.  It is me who has the feeling that I don't put in the hours that I should be.  That I am inadequate as a house keeper and do not have flower beds to rival Better Homes and Garden.......
 I don't have any small children to run after--they have all flown.  So, why can't I shake the feeling that I need to do more.  Do I need counseling???  Who knows.  I am not expecting answers here.  I am just wondering if anyone feels this way.
My life if full.  There isn't a spare moment in the day. When I leave work I go home.  Sometimes we eat on the way home, sometimes I cook.  Some evening I go up to the studio and try to squeeze in time but it is so difficult.

Are there answers???


  1. Wow..such stunning creations...beautiful! Wonderfully written post..keep creating it makes life shine !

  2. Hi!
    I'm new to your blog and just poking around enjoying everything when i came across this post....honey...do what you love.......life is too short. I say this but i have the same quilty feelings that you do.....here is what i do......i finally reached the point in my life where i no longer need to work(thank you God)...you would think that would be the save-all...but no...now there is MORE i feel i should be doing as far as the house and cleaning and cooking i can still guilt myself right out of my artwork.....So i plan out what i'm going to get done for the day and get it done EARLY. Even cook. When i cook i never cook for just one day i make enough for 3! And when i've done all i said i was gonna do for the day then i go play , guilt free....well almost ...theres still the dusting and mopping and gardening and and and ...oh Lord get a grip its not like i forgot to feed the baby! LOL! Hang in there! Hugs! deb